I think my Dearest Debbie you are the Lucky one. You would not believe the Blanket of craziness that has covered the world . Killer Virus, More than usual Earthquakes, Locusts, Tornadoes and Now something called Murder Hornets. I think Godzilla may be next on the Hit Parade. Love you and miss you .

My Dearest Debbie, 
 It has been more than six years since you left this world and me. I am crying as I write this because the pain of not having you by my side is just as fresh as it was the very first day. In fact maybe worse. The longer my life goes on without you the Less I find life worth Living, Music is fast becoming no longer fun, My little side career as a videographer is taking a big hit due to the new I phones and their amazing video and audio capabilities, so fewer people are Hiring vidiographers. There seems to be less and less to live for. Which may be a non issue soon because I can't afford to eat healthy like I should and my heart problem is still "a problem" I finally quit smoking for good almost a year ago, cold turkey was the only way to do it. I am finally over them for good. I think about you and Danny every day. I miss hearing his "I Love You Daddy" That is something I always treasured as I never even heard those words from my own biological Daughter. But that's another issue all together. I Still Love you as Much as Ever. 

I am so very sorry I wasn't a better Husband to you. I truly Tried. I can only hope that in your heart you knew that I loved you more than anything on this earth, I know sometimes it might not have seemed so, maybe it was hubris, maybe it was ignorance, or maybe just plain Stupidity. The fact remains that you were the best thing that ever happened to me. If it were not for your Love I would have probably ended up in Prison or Dead by the age of 30. I loved Your son (our son) Danny so very much as well, I miss hearing him say the words "I love you Daddy" I have never even heard those words from my own Daughter, of course I can't really blame her because I was never really anything more than a sperm Donor in her case, due to distance and the Ragged relationship with her mother that always got in the way. Since you have been gone I have tried to be happy again but it has proven very Hard and sometimes I just feel like throwing in the Towel and Joining you In Paradise. But I am to much of a coward for that. Besides, If I believe in God than I have to believe that doing such a Thing would be in fact an unforgivable sin, so I'll just wait till he calls me home to be with you. In the mean time I try and fill the emptiness inside by playing music ( I think you would be proud of how far I have come after not playing for so many years) it is a lot of Fun, but the fun only seems to last a short while before I have to return home to an empty bed and sometimes it seems an even emptier Life. I am also doing a bit of what I went to school for , I make Promo Videos for local bands and film weddings and anniversaries, quinceaneras, Dog shows, Even The Sonoma County Hot Air Balloon Festival.
Worked as a volunteer at Public access TV channel 27 till the city of Vacaville shut it down because of Budget concerns. But None of these things can replace what you brought to my Life. No matter how hard I try, sometimes I still miss you so much I cry myself to sleep. I love You Debbie. 

I never thought I could miss someone as much as I miss you.

   I am finding myself missing you something awful lately my love. My days are so empty and my health has taken a turn for the worse. I just don't seem to have the energy nor inclination to go on anymore, I will try but it seems to be getting harder and harder to cope with day to day life. I Love you Debbie and I hope it is true that when My time comes we will meet again. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!.

My Dearest Debbie. I am so ashamed that I missed your birthday yesterday. I have been very ill lately, 9 days in the hospital with pneumonia and now ill have the flu. I still love you as much as I ever did and miss you daily. All my Love to the moon and back. <3 h2="">

Today would have been our 34th wedding anniversary. I Love you just as much as I ever did and miss you even more.  Sometimes when iI see a woman riding a little red scooter down Texas street for just a split second I think it is you. You are in my heart forever. Love and miss you to the moon Baby.