Dera Debbie,
I am sorry I didn't write this morning. I had other things on my mind. Not to say that you aren't always on my mind. It's just health issues. You understand. I am really missing you alot right now. I bought one of the E cigarettes. just not the same. But I will do my best not to go back to real tobacco. Your brother is having trouble with constipation again so He bought some gigarettes because I know that they help as a laxitive. he was smoking behind my back any way. musch like I was behind yours. I am so sorry. But I know you knew anyway. I could never fool you. Lord the pain of living with out you is so strong. I love you and miss you with all of my heart. I am not sure if writing these letters to you is a good idea for mental state of mind or not. But I feel the need to communicate with you somehow. I know you believed in God and Angels, so if you were right then I know that you can see and read my letters. Till I write again. I love you eternally.

Ron